2 Corinthians 12:9-10, “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
At the end of Summer; after being home every day, after spending every hour and every waking moment with my 5, let us call them “strong willed children”, a husband who is a
Police Officer and is away more than he is home; let me just be straight up, I am tired! For the love of God, why does summer seem like prison at times? I am over the countless demands of my precious offspring and just holding my breath until that moment comes at the end of a very exhausting day when I can close my bedroom door (because all us Mommies know that a bathroom is not a sacred breathing place during the day) and take a very large inhale and exhale, releasing that tightening of our chest that has been crushing us all day long, many times opening up the floodgates of tears along with it.
Tears of exhaustion, tears of frustration, tears of guilt, thinking back on those numerous times throughout the day when something within our spirit broke and we’re not our oh-so loving self to our children
or those around us. Tears of shame because we think as a Christian should know better, but yet we tend to fall into the weakness and chaos of the day, into a downward spiral of fury and frustration taking our children with us along the journey of darkness and negativity.
We lay our heads to rest on our pillows at night feeling like a failure; as a parent, as a Christian.
Too exhausted and emotionally numb from our day or many days in a row of events that just wear us down causing us to feel too weak to even read our Bible or do a simple devotion. Children’s activities and schedules, fighting amongst one another, the continual battle of resistance when asking someone to do something, non-stop redirection of “don’t do this or don’t do that” on top of any marital, financial, family, or health struggle we may be facing…..they all bring weariness to our spirit.
This is when we must remember what the apostle Paul wrote: “Consider it pure joy, my brothers (and sisters), whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” James 1:2-4
Whoa!!! I don’t know about you, but when I read those verses my spirit jumps for JOY! Paul is telling me that I am not a failure as a parent or as a Christian when I cry at the end of the day because I am so tired of the everyday stressors of life. He is telling me, be glad for these trials, Praise God for these troubles for they are refining me and maturing me to be complete, not lacking anything. I can lift my head and hands to the sky, wipe the tears from my eyes and allow those very words to permeate every fiber of my being. Rejuvenating my spirit, reminding me that I am not weak during these times as my mind wants to think, but I am
strong. Strong in spite of my weaknesses, because each day my spirit was praying for help, praising God through song, waiting upon Him while standing on His Word to uphold me in my times of trouble, and although during many of these days I felt abandoned, as if He was not listening, clearly, He was there. Carrying me through every moment of every day, giving me the strength to persevere. For that, I will sing Glory to the God on High; I will welcome these trials for they are the fires of life that are refining me into the woman that He has intended me to be.
I like the quote, “A diamond doesn’t start out polished and shining. It once was nothing special, but with enough pressure and time, becomes spectacular. I’m that diamond.” -Solange Nicole
Friends, Mommies, we are that diamond.
Thank you Lord Jesus, for carrying us through our times of trouble. For strengthening us when we are weak and for loving us unconditionally when we feel so unworthy. We praise You through the trials of life and hold tight to Your promise that when You are through refining us we will be complete and not lacking anything. Thank You Lord, Amen.