The Big C

Key Verse: Genesis 12-25:18 (Please take a moment to read this story at your leisure.)

It has been nearly a year now since I stood at my sink and heard that familiar whisper…

I was standing in my old, country kitchen looking out the window above my sink, hands submerged in soapy water with dirty dishes stacked around me. I felt something stir within me. That gentle whisper I know and love from my Father. He so gently said, “Would you go through anything to bring glory to My name?”

While this may seem odd to many, I do believe that God allows us to go through many difficult things in life to not only bring Him glory, but to make us stronger in our faith as well.

My immediate response? “Yes, God. I would go through and do anything for You.” That was when He asked me something I have never wanted to hear because it has been my biggest fear since becoming a mother. He asked, “Even cancer?” The dish dropped from my hand back into the suds and dirty water. My breath… gone. My chest… pain.

Standing numb, I gained my composure with tears falling. I had to examine my soul right then and there. I questioned how deep my faith ran and at that point I knew my answer to Him was, “Yes, God. Even cancer.” Slow breaths, “I will go through the hell of cancer if it only meant Your name be glorified.” I meant it from the very depth of my soul and still do.

I didn’t hear Him ask any more questions that day, but I thought of how I would react should I ever receive news of such heartbreak. I really do not know if this was a glimpse of preparedness or if God just wanted me to hear my own answer to life and faith. Ultimately, my life is in His hands and there is no better place to be.

Who in the Bible was tested in faith? Start with Abraham in Genesis 12:1-25:18. Even through great testing and nearly losing his family, Abraham remained faithful to God and his reward was countless descendants made into a great nation. We are part of that.

I encourage you to examine your faith. Would you walk through the hardest battle of your life knowing that it was only to bring glory to God? Our daily choices, our reactions and faith matter.

Lord, may I ever only live to glorify You in everything I say and do. I am far from perfect, but I want to be used of You and if that means walking the darkest path, that I will do. Be with my friends and family who are already walking this path and may it never be in vain. I pray Your name be glorified and honored in such heartache. Amen.

Tara DeMaris

Tara, graduate of Crown College, is the mother to four beautiful children.  Together, Tara and her husband, David, and their family make their home in Northwest Missouri.  Tara is passionate about reaching the hearts of women and young ladies.  She loves to write and teach God's Word.  God put a desire in Tara's heart over six years ago to start a ministry that reached women.  Today Tara has founded Titus II Woman Ministries and God is showing her miracles and his hand at work every day.
Tara, graduate of Crown College, is the mother to four beautiful children. Together, Tara and her husband, David, and their family make their home in Northwest Missouri. Tara is passionate about reaching the hearts of women and young ladies. She loves to write and teach God’s Word. God put a desire in Tara’s heart over six years ago to start a ministry that reached women. Today Tara has founded Titus II Woman Ministries and God is showing her miracles and his hand at work every day.

One thought on “The Big C

  1. On the Big C. Tara, my heart stopped as I read your article. I pray with everything in me that you will never have to face this horrible illness in your life. I watched your Aunt Linda suffer with this. Saying that I am so proud that you would go through anything for our wonderful Savior. May your day be blessed with all the passion and presence that is found in God alone. I love you deeply!

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