On a Cold December Night

Key Verse: John 8:29, “And he that sent me is with me: the Father hath not left me alone; for I do always those things that please him”.

I grew up in a family that went to church. We weren’t regulars, but we went. I knew there was a God and He sent His Son to earth to teach us and then die for us, because that is what I was taught in Sunday school. And then I grew up. I didn’t know in my heart that God lives and Christ lived, died and lives again until a very scary night ten years ago.

Ten years ago I did not attend church at all. I did not read the Scriptures. I did not teach my then four year old about God or Christ. I lived my life day to day. I was pregnant with a son and then my water broke two months too early. I did not cry out in prayer. I had no answer for what was happening. The medical staff at the hospital did everything they could to stop my son from coming, but he arrived two months and a day early. He did not cry when they delivered him from my womb. I looked around. I could not see him. He struggled with breathing. He still did not cry. My heart sank. Yet I still did not cry out in prayer. I did not wrestle with my Lord and Savior. His lungs were not developed. He had pneumonia. He struggled to stay alive. The hospital he was born at was not prepared for a preemie baby. The pediatrician and the obstetrician that delivered my son came to me in the recovery room and told me that my son would need to leave the hospital on a helicopter and be transported over 100 miles from where I was, before I had ever seen him or held him, if we were going to give him a chance at living. And then they left my side to send my son on his way to live, before he had even cried, before he had even been seen by his mother, before he had even been loved on by his mother.

I sat in my hospital room that night waiting to hear the cries of my son.   I heard nothing but the sound of a helicopter taking my son away from me. And still I did not cry out for my Lord. I did not cry out to God. I did not seek comfort. I just knew I was all alone in the world and my heart was breaking into so many pieces that I did not know if it would ever be made whole again. I was alone in the dark in a strange hospital with not a soul to comfort me. And then… I wasn’t alone. In my darkest hour, even though I did not call for Him, He was there. I did not seek his love or comfort but He was there and my heart was filled with a burning that has never diminished since. My heart was made whole. In my darkest hour my heart finally knew what I had been taught in Sunday school all those years ago. God lives and He is my Father in Heaven. Christ Lived, Died, and Lives again. Our Father in heaven hears our prayers. The Holy Ghost is our comforter. And we are not alone…ever!

Since that scary December night, ten years ago, the verse John 8:29 “And he that sent me is with me: the Father hath not left me alone; for I do always those things that please him”, Has never left my heart or my mind. I fill my days attempting to please my Father in Heaven. When times get tough, I call upon my Lord for comfort. When things are great and everything is smooth sailing, I lift prayers of gratitude to my Father in Heaven.  There are times when I need guidance, I turn to my Maker. When someone else needs comfort, I do all that I can to be a rock for them. If someone needs a spoon and I have one, I give them two spoons.  I never want to feel like I did that night in that hospital room; not ever again. I never want that burning in my bosom to leave me. I share my love of God and Christ with my son who came home to us after spending only ten days in the NICU, on Christmas Eve.  I have never shared this story publicly before and I wanted on this special anniversary to share it with all of you so that you may all know with a burning in your bosoms that YOU ARE NEVER ALONE and our Father in Heaven is always with us, even if we aren’t always with Him.

Evaluate your life and your actions. If you find you aren’t doing things that please our Father in Heaven or you don’t know what pleases Him, turn to the Scriptures. They are our road map for happiness. I pray that we all find a way to live our lives pleasing our Heavenly Father. I testify to you that when we live our lives pleasing Him we shall find that our lives are pleasing to us. We shall be showered in blessings when we do those things that please our Father. And I leave this testimony with you in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen!

Alethea Gaukel

Alethea, Ally for short, has three wonderful children, whom she homeschools, and a fine husband, Chuck.  Ally grew up in northern California before making here home in rural northwest Missouri.  She loves helping others by being a friend, inspiring them to take action in their own lives financially, spiritually and in health.  She loves the Lord and wants to share His message.  Her family supports Children’s Mercy Hospital in Kansas City, Missouri as well as ReStart, an interfaith shelter system to help families  and grown foster children find places to live.  James 1:8, “If any of you lack wisdom, let him as of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.” (KJV)
Alethea, Ally for short, has three wonderful children, whom she homeschools, and a fine husband, Chuck. Ally grew up in northern California before making here home in rural northwest Missouri. She loves helping others by being a friend, inspiring them to take action in their own lives financially, spiritually and in health. She loves the Lord and wants to share His message. Her family supports Children’s Mercy Hospital in Kansas City, Missouri as well as ReStart, an interfaith shelter system to help families and grown foster children find places to live. James 1:8, “If any of you lack wisdom, let him as of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.” (KJV)

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