Key Verse: Philippians 4:6-7 ,“Be careful for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”
From the time I was old enough to start earning my own money, I was careful. I saved against a day when I might have need, and I worried that the little I could save wouldn’t be enough. Then I married a spender, and for years, my careful saving and his carefree spending created tension in our household. I didn’t want to feel that tension, but I couldn’t understand how he could spend without thought of tomorrow, nor could he understand why I needed to find security in our financial situation. Even after we both gave our lives over to God, the tension that I felt over finances continued to affect our daily lives. I couldn’t see that I
doubted God’s ability or willingness to provide when I put such a focus on what I personally could do to save or earn. I heard the verses about the birds of the air and lilies of the field, and while it sounded good, I never seemed to internalize it.
Nearly two years ago, my husband came to me and told me that he wanted to quit his job and be a blogger. We had six children, a mortgage, and a car payment. I thought it impossible. I knew I couldn’t handle the uncertainty. He explained his vision to me, and why he thought it could work, and we agreed to both pray on it, but in the back of my mind, I knew that I couldn’t possibly live day to day without a guaranteed paycheck to look forward to. We prayed and talked for several months. Then one Sunday, I whispered a quiet prayer as we entered church. “Lord, please give us guidance. Make an answer clear- let us know your desires for our path.” Unknown to me, my husband was praying the same prayer that morning. At our church, there is no prepared sermon. The minister opens the Bible, reads wherever it falls open, and preaches on it, trusting that the Lord will provide inspiration and words. The Bible fell open to Luke 9; “Take nothing for your journey, neither staves, nor scrip, neither bread, neither money, neither have two coats apiece.” I found myself looking across the aisle at my husband in the men’s section and wondering if he was hearing what I was hearing. At the noon hour, we sat down at the table, and he said to me, “Did you hear what I heard this morning?” Not wanting to admit that God may have plans that didn’t take into account my need for financial security, I simply answered, “What did you hear?” Second service began, and the Bible fell open to Numbers 13. The minister talked about the Lord promising to give the land to the Israelites and yet with the exception of Caleb, the spies were too overcome with their own
fears to grasp hold of the marvelous wonders that the Lord wanted to give them. I could no longer deny that God had a path for us and that He would provide. For the first time in my life, I felt a deep peace about tomorrow. I didn’t know what it would bring, but I knew it didn’t matter. God would provide. I had never been in control and I could now face that, and turn it over to God.
I won’t say it hasn’t been a struggle. It has, and it is still. But every time we think we’ve reached the end of our reserves, God is there to strengthen us. When we have a need, He provides. It might be an unexpected check in the mail, it might be a good pair of hand-me-down shoes just the right size and at just the right time for the kid who really needs them, or it might just be a word of encouragement when we are feeling low. I have finally given God all of my burdens, making known my requests through prayer and supplication, but most importantly, doing so with thanksgiving for His providence.
Lord, thank You for your providence in our lives. Thank You for directing our paths, and for providing peace which passeth all understanding as we walk the paths You would have us take. As we have been blessed, so help us to be a blessing to others. In Jesus’ name, Amen.