21 Then the Lord said, “There is a place near me where you may stand on a rock. 22 When my glory passes by, I will put you in a cleft in the rock and cover you with my hand until I have passed by. 23 Then I will remove my hand and you will see my back; but my face must not be seen.”
If you haven’t read the whole story that is happening here in Exodus, it’s amazing! Starting in Exodus 33:12-23, Moses is starting to wear thin. He’s just come off the mountain to see the Israelites have been worshipping the golden calf. The leadership in Aaron that he trusted caved under pressure and he’s beginning to wonder. He says to God, “you told me to lead these people; you say we’re special, but God you won’t even tell me your plans!” Then in verse thirteen he reminds God, “these are your people, you choose them.” Finally, Moses pleads with Him, “if you aren’t going with us, please call this off, I don’t want to go without knowing your presence is with me. Please, Lord, show me your glory!”
Have you ever felt this way? Oh boy I do! Days when the kids are on my last nerve, when my job isn’t going right, when my marriage isn’t the “movie plot” it should be. When life just isn’t making any sense and I cry, “God, you put me here! You said you’d be with me. I’ve tried to follow you and here we are with whiners and complainers and I don’t see your plan AT ALL! If you aren’t in this, I don’t want to go. Show me your plan in all this mess!”
Here’s where it gets interesting. God agrees to show Moses his back side. I can’t help but think maybe God is agreeing to show me the same thing. I can’t see him face to face, but I can see evidence of where He’s been.
In the moments of frustration, is that the moment God has me covered with his hand? Maybe I just need to trust Him until He’s passed by and I see his back side, still leading me. He’s still in control. When we can’t see Him maybe He just has us under His protective hand and when it’s time we will see the evidence of Him.
Many times we don’t “see” God until we look back and can see His hand in the events that have taken place, giving us faith to continue to trust in the unseen before us. Sometimes, just seeing his back side; knowing He’s still leading has to be enough until the day when we will all see clearly as promised in 1 Corinthians 13:12.
If you struggle, like I do, with not knowing the plan for your life, or even your next day, maybe sitting down and remembering the ways you have seen God move in the past will give you the faith to trust Him when you can’t see or feel Him now.
Lord, I pray that You would help us to rest in the comfort of knowing You are leading us even when we can’t see Your hand. And God when we can’t see Your hand, help us to trust Your heart; knowing that when it’s right, we’ll see You by the evidence of what You’ve brought us through. Amen
Amanda is a homeschooling mother of two great children and wife to Nathan. While Amanda grew up in Jordan, Montana, their family makes their home in Bismarck, North Dakota. Amanda’s passion for leading others in worship shines through along with her love for Jesus, her family and laughter. Their family loves to support Compassion International in whatever way possible. Amanda holds associates degrees in both music performance and office administration from Trinity Bible College. “your greatest contribution to the kingdom of God may not be something you do but something you raise.” ~Andy Stanley