I’ve been studying the book of Colossians. I love this book and today before I began my reading and studying I prayed, “Lord, open my heart and head to what you want me to learn today from this.” Simple, I know, but He totally delivered for me today! Don’t you just love when you say a very simple and seemingly nonchalant prayer and God just overwhelms you with an amazing answer? I totally do!!
Oh friends, today, he spoke loud and clear to me! I wanted to share.
I read through Colossians again (yes, the whole book). In Chapter three verse two it says to “set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.” Okay, so lately my mind has not been heaven bound, but on the here and now of what I am walking through. Nothing major really, just a lot of distractions and lack of focus. It’s really just the selfish heart I have pounding in my chest, but I can control those thoughts. My mind is not regulated by any other person, but me. God gave me an individual personality and thoughts so that I could make decisions for myself. He is pretty awesome like that! So, lesson one; controlling my thoughts – check! (This will be continual work on my part. Lots of prayer.)
Then further down it says, “But you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander and filthy language from your lips.” So, I don’t struggle with all of these, but I get angry and I usually internalize it and then it builds and I totally explode all over everywhere. I hate this less attractive part of me, but this is a reminder that I need to work on this area more and pray more in depth about it. Last thanksgiving I remember such an episode. I had taken every frustration for the past several months, all the heartache, all the confusion, all the hurt and swallowed it. I didn’t talk to anybody about any of it (well, maybe I whined to a couple girlfriends), but I didn’t pray about any of those emotions. I cracked wide open and spewed all over my husband that day. Of course it would be on thanksgiving; a day that my family could just be happy together and eat a good meal. I ruined that one! So, lesson two; dealing with my emotions and frustrations in a healthy and prayerful way – check!
But Paul said that instead of focusing on these not so great qualities we NEED to, “clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.”
There are these answers of how to live a beautiful life in the image of God right here for us. It’s not a struggle to choose the good over the less charming. It should be our nature as Christians to be compassionate, kind, humble, gentle and patient. With Titus II Woman it is our mission to love others and encourage them. So, why have I been less than what I was meant to be? Plain ol’ sin coming in with a sneaky little culprit. Man, I hate that Satan!
Lord, I can’t do any of this without you holding my hand. I need you every step of the way reassuring that I am the woman you called me to be. Forgive anything that may come to mind or heart that is not bearing the perfect fruit to further your kingdom. Thank you for loving me even in the state of less than perfect virtues. In Jesus’ name, amen.