The roles have been switched…for a while at least.
I had no idea this is what God had in mind when he set in motion the move to Idaho. I honestly thought that I would still get to keep on with what I was doing. You know, homeschooling the kids, working on Titus II Woman, and writing more on the book.
Well…. there were other plans in the making. The first was that I would be the one to work full time and be the provider for a while. My husband is actively looking and has had several interviews, but none of them were right for our family and what we want for our future.
When I am not at work I try to get schooling in with the kids, work on the little hobby farm, write, and run Titus II Woman. There has been little time for me, but I am getting through this with the help of my family and close friends. It doesn’t hurt that we have found a small church that cares either.
Ladies, my life has not been what I thought. I had an idea of what it would be like here and not one thing is how I pictured it. I wish I could say that I am traveling across the United State and speaking at different women’s events and having a blast with all you beautiful women, but the fact is that we are in a season of life where I need to be doing more for my family. I anxiously await the day when I can return to the sole focus of running Tii and developing a speaking schedule. I long for days of getting up before the rest of the house to enjoy coffee while I sit and study and write, but for now I will continue basking in a little extra sleep and slipping in study time on breaks at work or before I hit the hay when I return home before midnight.
We are all going to experience times in life where God will stretch us more that we are comfortable with. It’s called growth and gaining wisdom. It is during those times that we have to really press in to our trust and faith in Christ. There is something really special here for me and I trying to learn it. There will be a day when I won’t need to be the provider in such a way and I can return to the little farm and run the zoo we add to near daily, grow the fresh produce to sell, and collect the beautifully colored and delicious eggs. Today is not that day and I am finding happiness in what I must do right now.
How are you finding your happiness in the hard places?
Job 36:11 says this, “If they obey and serve him, they will spend the rest of their days in prosperity and their years in contentment.” I will obey, serve and trust Him because that is where I am going to find contentment for today and where what I do in this moment will bring prosperity for tomorrow.
Lord, I have this daily struggle with being happy right where I am. I have so many things that I want to do for you, but it seems that you want me to do other things right now. Help me to see your hand in this all. I want to be happy where I am planted and glorify your name while I live through this all. Bless the ladies who are walking this path with me. In your name, amen.