I have struggled with eating right since I was a little girl; especially since late middle school, and even recently. Food was my comfort. I ate just because I wanted to eat things, because I was bored, stressed, etc. I didn’t realize I really had an issue with these things until I was pregnant with our second daughter. I started out at about 180 pounds before I got pregnant with our first daughter, Joelle, and went up to 219. I suppose to me it didn’t seem as “bad” because I was able to lose most of it in a few weeks between nursing and being active as a college student.
Fast forward about a year and a half and I found out that I was pregnant with our second daughter, Chloe, who’s name just happens to mean “to blossom”. Honestly I wasn’t excited completely to find out at that moment that I was pregnant again. We had already decided at that point that we really wanted to move. Finding out that I was pregnant made us decide that we needed to move for sure.
We ended up moving in with my parents for about a year. At the start of my pregnancy with Chloe I weighed about 185 pounds. I started gaining weight a lot faster than I remembered gaining weight with Joelle and was thinking “oh boy what if we are having twins”. When we moved in with my parents, my husband found a job right away. I felt frustrated during this time because I didn’t understand why we couldn’t find a full-time ministry position. I know now that God kept us in there so our lives in Him could grow and blossom. He used us to help not only other people’s lives to be poured into, but also helped us get a clearer direction in what He wanted for us – in His timing, not ours.
He showed me that I could lose weight even when I thought it looked impossible. As I was pregnant with Chloe I would just keep snacking like crazy when everyone wasn’t at home. I wasn’t eating healthy, I wasn’t as active as I needed to be, and I watched way too much television. The bigger I got the more I didn’t want to look at myself.
I remember being in the hospital after I had Chloe and crying because I had gained so much weight. Little by little the weight started to come off after I had Chloe but not as fast as I wanted it to. In June of 2014 I weighed 204 pounds. I really realized that summer and into fall that something had to majorly change because I had a hard time catching my breath going up and down stairs, it was affecting my marriage, my life with Christ, and more.
I really started praying harder that God would help me get the weight off because I didn’t want to keep gaining and I wanted to be healthier for my husband, our girls, and for those that we minister to. I started walking at work and at home, going to the park with our kids, walking at church with our walking group, and exercising. It hasn’t been an easy journey and it certainly is still a battle with eating, but God is helping me to be so much closer to my goal of 145 pounds. Only about seventeen more pounds to go or so! God has been using this journey to help me to blossom in my walk with Him and to learn that not everyone loses weight the same way. It may not come off as quickly as you want, but it can happen.
Remember ladies, God made each of us unique in His image. Whether you are struggling with losing weight, comparing your God-given gifts to others, or even just comparing yourselves to others, God is right there with you to guide you and show you who He created you to be. Isaiah 64:8, “Yet you, LORD, are our Father. We are the clay; you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand.” Let God mold and shape you into who He wants you to be. No matter what, you are created unique in Christ! He is the one who molds and reshapes the imperfections out of our lives to make us more like Him.
Jesus, I pray that if anyone is struggling with losing weight that You will encourage them right now, that You find them beautiful and tell them. I pray that they will remember You made them for a purpose and each of them are unique in your image. You knew each of us before we were even born and know the plans that you have for each of our lives! I pray that each person that reads this will be encouraged!! Thank you for all that you are doing and going to do in each person’s lives! In Jesus Name, Amen