Not many of us are great with handling anger. I am the queen of bottling it until it blows. I realize this is very unhealthy and it wreaks havoc not only on my, but on those who are around me when it explodes. Trust me, I am working on it.
I do not like to be angry, but I often find myself in the very place I do not want to be. I get upset over little things that really didn’t deserve such attention. I yell at my kids because they didn’t do a chore the exact way I taught them. I get upset with my husband because he didn’t do something the way that I would or he let the kids do something that I would not allow. I am sure you are reading this and thinking we all do these things.
I take this to heart and let it fester. It’s a boiling effect.
Think about a pot on the stove with water half way full. You have it there on medium so that it will gradually get hotter and become a boil to cook those noodles, potatoes, or vegetable. This is how it with me. I am the pot of water. I get upset with something, usually pretty minor, and I stuff it down instead of addressing my emotion with whomever it is directed toward. I stuff and stuff until there is just no more room inside my emotional tank to stuff anymore down. That’s when it happens. I explode all over the place and my husband and children are usually the ones who get the brunt of the mess.
There is definitely no perfect wife or mom in this house.
The thing is that all this could be avoided if I would have just dealt with the emotion when it occurred. Most of the time talking it out will solve a world of hurt and help us to move on. I am horrible at confrontation. I absolutely loathe having to confront anyone on a negative level. I want to be encouraging and uplifting, but that’s also why I get myself into a predicament of being the bomb that spewed nasty all over.
We can find great help in the following verses:
Psalm 30:5, “For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.”
Proverbs 15:1, “A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.”
Proverbs 29:11, “A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control.”
I am at place where I now can recognize when I am stuffing an anger feeling down. I don’t always react properly, but I try to deal with it right away and these verses have helped me tremendously. I remember that God is slow to anger. He is patient and kind even when I am not. He still rejoices over me even when I mess up. I want have that for my family and people in my life. I constantly recite Proverbs 15:1 when I want so badly to raise my voice and I remember Provers 29:11 so that I control myself when I feel like may explode everywhere. This is still a work in progress for me, much like my walk with Christ.
Lord, I know that I am not the only woman who struggles with controlling her emotions, especially with anger. I ask that you would continue to guide me as I take steps to be a better wife, mom, and friend to those around me and use my emotions to further your kingdom and not my state of mind. May I always remember your word of truth when dealing with a sinful life. Amen.