I lack this character trait more than any other. It is hard for me to grasp. I want to get it. I want to have better character. I want to be….patient.
Patience is something I struggle with greatly. I am a woman who wants to do it now, get it now, see it now. I don’t like to wait. Who does?
This season of life has had me in nothing but a waiting period. I had to put so much on hold because our life demanded it. I needed to become more of the money earner for our family this past year so that I could support my husband as a grad student. I thought many of my dreams would fade away and die. God had other plans.
He put me in a patience lesson because He has perfect timing and great things in store. At one point I told my husband, “I think I’m gonna have to give up Titus II to someone else to run. I just don’t’ have time to run it like I would like.” I was heartbroken at the thought. I didn’t want to just hand it off and watch someone else take a dream placed within me and make it their own. I wanted to fly with it. I wanted see what God had planned for it while I was still part of the core.
I know that can sound selfish, but this ministry was birthed from seven years of running and a whole of prayer. A lot of my life had been invested into it. All that time and energy would feel like such a waste if I had to give it up now. BUT God! He had a better plan.
I stuck with it. As my hours at work increased and my children began to enter sports and extracurricular activities, my time started to dwindle even further, but I kept pushing because I felt that God had something more in this for me and I had to be patient on His timing. My waiting period is not in vain. There have been so many lessons learned during this past year and His perfect timing has been one of them.
At the very least, I could write my scheduled articles and when my husband was done with school I would return to running Titus II Woman Ministry full time and speaking again. God said, “How about this first!” A book proposal was born. Believe me when I say that in no way did I seek out this endeavor. This came to me in the form of an email through channels so unlikely you wouldn’t believe my story if I tried to tell you.
I took a leap of faith and said “yes” to beginning this process of writing a whole book. I knew I had enough words for the short articles on the Titus II Woman blog, but did I have enough words for an entire book? God has proven that I do! What an awesome, perfect-timing God we serve.
My patient year has been blessed in seeing God’s hand all over my life and desires. He has actually grown Titus II Woman Ministry in the absence of my every day presence and thrown in a book contract to boot. He has shown me that “with God all things are possible” and “through God I have strength in all things”. It has been possible to meet the demands of life and ministry and then some. As my waiting in patience period has made a full 365 turn, by the time you are reading this, I look forward to a future filled with more of God and His perfect timing. I am excited that you all are here to join me in this new journey and I can’t wait to share more of what God is up to as we walk this path together.
Take these two verses and write them on your heart:
Matthew 19:26, “Jesus looked at them and said, “’With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.’”
Philippians 4:13, “I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”
Lord, thank You for perseverance. Without You guiding my steps when I could not see, I would not be where I am today. I would have given up long ago, but You picked me up and pushed me to do whatever necessary to just keep going. Thank You for Your continuing encouragement and faithfulness. I am so blessed by You. Amen.