Psalm 27:14, “Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”
When starting this new project of writing an entire book, I felt weak. Maybe a stronger word would be ill equipped. I was full of fear; not fearless in the least. I thought of all the reasons why I was not qualified to be writing this book that God had clearly set before me.
I was being a good girl and waiting for God to move, to give me some kind of instruction. Well, He did and then I didn’t want to. The scripture above tells us to wait and then it says to be strong.
When God asks us to do something after a waiting period, we need to be strong enough to then say yes without hesitation. I wish I could say this was my reaction, but it was not. My valiant nature was nowhere to be seen. I honestly don’t know that I have a valiant nature. Maybe if my kids were in desperate need of my rescuing or something, but I am not, by nature, a heroic woman. I like comfort. I like peace. I like what feels normal. I don’t like change, but my life has been full of change; for as long as I can remember.
After a day of listing all my cowardly qualities, I decided to focus on my bold and fearless side.
Who was going to be affected by this book?
Why was God asking me to be part of it?
Would I hurt myself by not writing it?
I am sure you are curious of my answers; I would be if this were you writing. I was going to have the chance to reach women across the world. This book would be put in the stores of major retailers for an affordable price and also made available online for purchase. Not only that, but God had brought the publisher to me, and the work that this company was going to do for me entailed more than I know in five lifetimes. I could not possibly do this without them.
God asked me because I told Him I would do anything for His glory. At the beginning of 2017, I wrote a list of personal goals and right there at the top was listed, “write a book and get it published.” Yep, I actually asked for it. I didn’t know I would be ready so soon.
I would be stopping many blessings that God wants to pour into my life by not writing this book. I would actually be hurting myself by declining God’s consent in pursuing and becoming successful in a dream that I carried for quite a long time within me. Who am I to say no to God’s blessing over my life?
I quickly asked God to forgive me for shrinking under the call of a beautiful dream. I want to be used by God however He sees fit. This is His story, I am just one of the characters in it.
So, where do I go from here? The book is nearly finished with words prayed over more times than I can count. Amanda and I are about to approve book covers, biographies, head-shots, texture, page design, marketing tools, and the list continues. Where I once would have cowered from the idea of all these new decisions needing to be made, I am now excited at the next one to come. I am overjoyed to see where God is going to lead this book and ministry to glorify His name.
Are you feeling like you may be lacking boldness for a calling God has set before you? Wait for His timing and then grab your strength in Him and say “YES” to what He is asking. This call is a great adventure that He will not leave you walking alone in.
Lord, You have called us each as Your own to proceed after You in a calling that You purposed us each specifically for. Give us Your strength to say, “Yes,” and determination to see it through. Bless each woman that is figuring out her call, and show her exactly what You want from her. Amen.