Who am I?
Over the last four years my family has experienced many changes. From being in pastoral ministry, moving twice, changing jobs more then I care to count, to the changes brought on by our children growing up. There have been many times I’ve found myself wondering, who am I?
I was a pastor’s wife. Then a truck driver’s wife. A ministry wife. An employee. An administrator. A blog writer. A musician. A worship leader. An author. A speaker. A mother. Titles filled my mind of the many things I had done. Nothing defined who I was. I was lost in my busyness.
Being a wife and mother fulfilled me. Working and serving the Lord with my talents brought me great joy. But, in the quietness of the day, when I was alone with my thoughts, I would wonder, who am I? When the busyness of life overwhelms us to the point of losing our identity, it’s time to quit doing and find a quiet place to discover what the Lord says.
Many of the things I do are vastly important, but my identity can’t be in what I do. Jobs come and go. Children grow up and go through stages intended to prepare them to take on lives of their own. Spouses have jobs and, while they are great helpmates, were never intended to be the basis for our identity.
Ephesians 2:10 is a good starting place to discover who we are.
“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.” (NLT)
For an in-depth study of who we are, Psalms 139 is an intimate chapter that explains the depth of God’s knowledge of us before we were even formed He knew us. I encourage you to take some time to read this chapter.
Sometimes in the midst of motherhood, and all the joy and responsibility it brings, we lose sight of the precious work we are. We don’t feel like a masterpiece when we just lost it with our kids for the hundredth time that day. When your spouse is late from work again and you’re stuck waiting, your temperature rises and you don’t feel very masterpiece like. When the busyness of life overtakes who are you, take the time to sit at the feet of Jesus and discover again that you are fearfully and wonderfully made.
No matter how you feel, you are loved. You are God’s masterpiece and He has great plans for you!
Father, thank you for Your Word that reminds us who we are in You. May we take time out of our busyness to read Your thoughts about us and rest in who You say we are. Amen.