So here I am once again, at a place in life where I am sitting and wondering what it is I need to do for God. Have you ever been there? Just not sure what’s next. Maybe you’re in a hurtful or painful relationship or at a crossroads in life and not sure what you are supposed to do next.
So, here I am just one little click from the age of 60. Wow! Does that ever sound old to my ears and, yet, in so many ways, I do not feel my age at all. I’m looking once again for another job and we are at a new church, where I’m not sure what my ministry is yet. Confused.
Then I read in this in my devotional time: “Nevertheless, each one should retain the place in life that the Lord assigned to him and to which God has called him. This is the rule I lay down in all the churches.” (I Corinthians 7:17) That verse literally jumps out at me this morning, had to stop my devotions and delve into it and see what God had to say to me.
Retain the place in life that the Lord assigned. What place is that for me? Wife. Pastor’s wife. Mother. Nana. Sister. Auntie. Friend. I am and have been all of these and so much more. God called me to a big job. First to be that loving and supportive wife. I feel I do that well, and pastor’s wife, I have truly been in the ministry all my life. I would not know how to live any differently. Mother, I work hard at being a good mother, and a loving Nana.
Yet, here I am feeling just a little lost. Then I look at I Timothy 4:17 and it says, “For this reason I am sending to you Timothy, my son whom I love, who is faithful in the Lord. He will remind you of my way of life in Christ Jesus, which agrees with what I teach everywhere in every church.”
Ok, God has sent me, yes, I agree with this. God sent me to Tarkio, Missouri to help lead a wonderful group of people. I feel positive about this and will endeavor to do my best. But, I believe where I feel lost is in what does God want me to do outside of the church? Where can I serve Him the best on the work field?
I am once again looking for work outside my home, bills still need to be paid. I need a job, but I also enjoy working. I have never been one to just sit at home and have no place to go or no work to do. And now I am almost 60. Who would want an aging, uneducated woman?
Then I read on to the next scripture and read this: “For God is not a God of disorder but of peace.” (I Corinthians 13:33) God is not a God of disorder. Best of all, He is a God of peace. I need to lay aside the confused state and just simply trust in His order and let peace come to my life.
Then the final verse came, one of my favorites and should be one of yours. A promise to all of us the love and serve the Lord. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11)
God has our backs, ladies! Oh, we have to do our part. I have to make the effort to look for a job, but then I have to simply trust that God will put me where I belong, in just the right place for “just a time as this.”
So, if you feel confused or frustrated, know that God is a God of order and peace and He has plans to prosper you as you faithfully follow Him. Don’t give up, keep on keeping on for God has great things in store for us who love Him.