All Who Knew Me
I have worked with many people. Many ages of people. I walked through all my adult life trying to fit into ministry everywhere we have lived (that has been a lot of places and I don’t regret a single one). I have served as a women’s group leader, a youth leader, a worship leader, Bible Study leader, small group leader, and I even helped in children’s ministry at one point. I have strong suits and I guarantee I have some pastors who will tell you that I wasn’t suited for the leadership I took on, but I saw a need and filled it as long as I was needed (or could possibly stand to be in it).
This letter is addressed to those who I have ever been blessed to be part of life with.
Dear person who blessed my life,
I knew you once and I know you still. It may have been when I was a small child and you graciously guided me through stages of my life. God knew that I needed you when I did. I have not forgotten you. You face comes to mind and when it does, I pray for you.
There were so many of you that grew up with me. Friendships were formed and time passes. Not one of you were more or less important in my life than the other. You were there when I needed just you. Each and every friendship has had an impact on my life and helped to shape me into the woman I am today. I still see your face and when I do, I pray for you.
I grew up, got married, and started a family of my own. Along that path, I still wanted to be part of God designed teams and relationships. God brought me to you, my youth kids. All of you who sat and listened as I shared God’s Word with you. All of you who played the crazy games I would come up with. You stood in the lines at the amusement park fun days and stayed up all night at the lock-ins. You shared your life, your dreams, your tears, your fears. I am a better woman today because you trusted me. You changed my life. You helped me to realize that it would be you as you grew and become women and started families of your own that you would be the very ones I would need to minister to and be blessed by. All of this would never have been dreamt of if you never were. All the questions I had about being your leader became clear the one day that God said I would be a leader of women and write for them. You have been the stories of sadness, triumph, hope, goodness, pain, love, sorrow that have backed every writing I have ever done. I am a better leader because of you. I still see your face and when I do, I pray for you with all my might.
You were the first group of women that I was a true leader of. You sat around the table, went on fun outings, prayed, were part of worship, and listened to me as I learned how to become a woman who loved to be with other women. Before you, I was scared to put myself out there and form friendships that would become relationships that would become family. Today, many of you are still my closests friends. I still see your faces and when I do, I pray for you.
You were the congregation that allowed me to lead you in song; guide you in worship and help you to feel and realize the power of God through the words and music that were sung and played. At times, I didn’t deserve to lead you, but you still came and stood and sang. You showed me how humble and gracious I needed to be to lead such a group to the altar of God. I still see your face and when I do, I pray for you.
My life would be so much different had you not been part of it. I have enjoyed you and I still love you. I know that I can’t possibly talk or see each of you in a single day, but one day I will see you all again. I will hug you all. I will see you and be able to thank you in person for the very real impact that you had on my life and we will be able to smile knowing that God brought us to one another for just the right season and time.
Know that I still see your face. And when I do, I pray for you.
Lord, for each person who has ever graced me with their presence, no matter how long or short it was, I ask for a multitude of blessing to shower them. I ask that You, no matter where they may be at in life at this very moment, show Yourself to them. If they have walked away from You, turn their path back toward You. If I can help, guide me. If they have a need, fill it. If they have a word, use it. If they are happy, bring them greater joy. I ask this and claim it in Your name. Amen.